I've reached Day #77 of my happiness challenge, and I have to be honest, I feel so much better than I did all those weeks ago when I first started it. Things change immensely over time, but I never believed they would change just as much as they have. Both my circumstances and feelings have changed, and through it all there has been one positive..
Absolute Magnitude has to be the most positive poem I have ever written, capturing the innate feelings inside me. Unphased by my current surroundings, I'm brought back to the eyes I once seen a whole new world within, and ruefully, I may confess, I made a mistake.
Life's all about lessons and learning from them is what builds us to be the people we come to be. So for that reason, I won't allow myself to regret the past year of my life, I'm going to take it in my stride and allow it to teach me a few things. Teach me not to allow myself to just settle for what I'm given, to feel less than anyone.. Miserable of the choices that someone else makes.
It has thought me to stay here in the present and take a good look around me at the people in my company. These people play a major role in shaping my personality, creating each aspect that I present to the world. The past year has been an absolute roller-coaster, but that's not a bad thing. Because at the end of it I came to acknowledge myself. I noticed what my interests were, and why I liked what I liked. And most of all, I learned how to find the strength to walk myself back to happiness.. I'm not fully there, but in my dark tunnel, I see light not too far ahead..x
Absolute Magnitude
At first sight, everyone just sees darkness.
They see emptiness, black and an unsettled mystery of abyss.
But when I look, all I see is you.
I can’t see it for what it is.
Out there, there is starlight, the moon, and gases that pierce the black.
There's the sun, lending them all its light, keeping them there for our view.
And though these many things are only small fragments of the space they fill,
They all remind me of you.
Piece by piece, they build up a world, a wonderment, an image not purely seen by many.
And though it is everlasting, many simply do not care.
Oblivious, they just take everything for face value.
But I know it's there.
As a child I often wondered what was out there.
I always imagined a never-ending, bottomless chasm that stretched out too far to see.
I thought of a stillness, and lifeless world.
Right above me.
But now I know it's darker than the nature I once thought.
There are black holes that swallow the light.
There are unknown entities hiding in the shadows.
And you just linger in the twilight.
And the distance between that darkness, and myself,
Is filled up with realities and dreams.
But when I look up at you, you break me from that endless loop.
And, inside, my heart beams.
Because within that darkness,
I don’t see the same dark, empty mystery that others do.
I see a world full of hopes and dreams, my Heaven, my heart.
I see you.
30/09/2016
Dedicated to Arturs Timofejevs
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