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The Silence

Whoa guys, I almost let 2016 go without uploading my December post! I've struggled with a few things since the end of November. And mainly, it was finding the right words. In general, not just with poetry. I made a promise to myself that I would tell people particular things before 2016 was over. But I have achieved nothing. It feels as if everything has fallen away from me, and I was just left in a distant place, a few months back. I have to catch up, and that's what I'm doing. Outside of my head, I understand that makes no sense to many. But, to me, I think I've finally found the right words. I'm a little lost, but I think I'm finding my way back. I hope you like The Silence as it genuinely has a piece of me within it. I've been trying to find the words for this kind of storyline for a while now, even long before everything fell apart. And, I think, it's sort of an anti-climax as it doesn't really have that dramatic effect in place. I di

The Cracks in your Iron Suit

Happy November once again guys! The years are just flying by, it's insane! I'm going to start on a bright note.. I just want to congratulate my big sister, Caroline and her family, on the arrival of their new babΓ³g, Cara-Lily.. I hope the very best to all of ye.. Many many happy days x♡ So this month, I've written something kind of different, and I understand why many people have questioned it. I've had people questioning who it's based on, and why my opinion on the matter is so strong.. It's very simple as far as I'm concerned. Today is Day #109, yes I reached 100 days last month! Which is fantastic, but it wasn't the end of the road for my happy days challenge.. I've decided to continue to as long as it takes to be happy.. Truly happy. I may be counting my days for the rest of my life! And I will, if that's what it takes :) The Cracks in your Iron Suit is about a person who genuinely is in a dark place and life is just slipping away ar

Absolute Magnitude

Happy October everybody! Happy October indeed... I've reached Day #77 of my happiness challenge, and I have to be honest, I feel so much better than I did all those weeks ago when I first started it. Things change immensely over time, but I never believed they would change just as much as they have. Both my circumstances and feelings have changed, and through it all there has been one positive.. Absolute Magnitude has to be the most positive poem I have ever written, capturing the innate feelings inside me. Unphased by my current surroundings, I'm brought back to the eyes I once seen a whole new world within, and ruefully, I may confess, I made a mistake. Life's all about lessons and learning from them is what builds us to be the people we come to be. So for that reason, I won't allow myself to regret the past year of my life, I'm going to take it in my stride and allow it to teach me a few things. Teach me not to allow myself to just settle for what I'm

Picture of Perfection

Happy September guys! Now.. This month, I've something special in store. I was clearing a load of old files off my laptop and getting ready for a fresh start in the new academic year, when I came across a few untitled files here and there in random folders. In one particular folder, I found this one. Untitled and undated but complete. I don't know when it was that I just abandoned the file and left it there believing it was piece of junk. But now, I see it was much more than that. I think, when I was writing this poem, I was actually referring to the writing that's across my wall in my bedroom. These include inspirational quotes, life lessons, paintings of all my favourite childhood cartoons..and more, but that's not important. There are many things in life that makes one turn toward their imaginary haven, and long to be there. I feel a bit like W. B. Yeats, longing for Innisfree, but this is a little different. When I look at this photograph I see home.. Fu

Four Letter Word

Hello again! I know this is the second time for you guys to hear from me this month, but I've been eager to post again. I've been on a bit of a journey for the past forty-odd days, making my way to what I originally believed was a road to happiness. I spoke about it in my last post; the challenge and the effects it has had on me so far. It was only last night I realised the challenge wasn't exactly about becoming happy. I am happy, innately, I just need to restore that within myself. Soon enough I will be sharing my experience so far with my readers.. Basically, it's not all been about happiness. I don't wake up every morning and wave at the sky, shouting "Good morning, Sunshine!" No, that's unrealistic. Instead, I've been gradually stepping out of the darkness, into the light. I need to do this for myself.. I just need to acknowledge all of the tiny aspects that make up my life, and the effects they have on myself as a person, the people aro

The Phantom of the Darkness

Hi there, it's time for my July upload. This poem is a little different to my others as it was co-written with my younger sister Clarice. I've done a few collaborations before but this one's different than any other. A few months ago I was going about my business when a thought came to me. This thought was a simple sentence that I jotted down really quick and had no idea what to do with it. The sentence was 'I'm never coming home' .. Which left me with a very broad foundation for a poem. After a while, ideas came flooding in. And the one that I liked the most out of all was the idea of the army. And a son leaving home to join the army. I loved the whole idea of 'never coming home' and the weight of that sentence. It was only nearing the end of June that I actually thought seriously about the sentence, and decided it was time to force it into a poem. I had tried so many times prior to it that I thought it would be interesting to bring a fresh

Fictional Dependency - Part III: 13 Layers of Irony

Hi guys, it's June again already! Time's flying by so fast, it's actually really scary.. Before we know it, it'll be Christmas again! Anyway.. I've had mixed feelings about this poem, and for that reason I was a little reluctant to post it. I've had a few chances every now and again, despite how busy I've been for the past two weeks.. But I just couldn't sit still and explain what this poem is about. Again, I just want to remind the reader that my poetry is fictitious, no matter how much it feels as if I'm describing myself. 13 Layers of Irony is the third part of the Fictional Dependency series. It has to be my favourite part of the three so far, because of the emotion. The whole idea of regret dominates her, she made a mistake and because she's now blocked out from his world, she has decided to tell herself she didn't care anyway. I'm glad many questions come to mind while you're reading the poem. Even I find myself aski

A Sense of Place

Hi all, good May to you all.. I've been anxious about my May upload.. and mainly because of the occasion that's in it. Today marks the anniversary of my big brother, Michael Jnr, who I've written many poems about. Those many poems began with this first one, 'A Sense of Place'. I won a competition with this poem in 2013, which was held for the Gathering Festival. Before entering the competition, I remember reading the requirements of the brief, the whole idea of a sense of place .. And I had to really think about it. All my life I've felt a little lost, I'm not going to lie. I never fully feel a comfortable sense of belonging in anywhere I am, or with anyone I'm with. The only thing that has ever assured me of my place in this world, is knowing that Michael is in the Kingdom above me. All I have to do is look up at the sky and I instantly find myself right back down to Earth. I've always hoped Michael was in a better place. Life is really

A Little Lesson for the Big World

Hi guys! I know this is my second post of the month, but I've been eager to post it since I wrote it. I'm delighted with this poem, mainly because I've beaten that horrid depressing twist I have on all of my poems. A lot of people have read this poem, and I've had loads of positive feedback.. I'd like to just say first that this is completely fictitious. The story-line is solely for the purpose of the lesson that the little boy learned. It's about how small little moments, insignificant at the time they're happening, can have a massive influence on us. I like to think that my parents, in any and all of their weaknesses, were the ones who taught me how to be a human. I read it in a book once, that when children see their parents cry, they realise that their parents are human too. They can suddenly relate with their emotions, whether they're sad themselves or not. And that's how they bond. In a way, I think that's how we all bond. I knew a

The Kingdom in the Sky

Hi guys! It's April already, can you believe it?! Time's flying by so fast.. I can barely keep up with the days! During March, I struggled to put a pen to paper, and construct my March poem. My aim is to write at least one poem a month, like I have for the past two years.. And hopefully, pull together a collection for when I'm older. I have so many thoughts, it wasn't as if I had a shortage of poem ideas, it was just compiling them into a poem that was the problem. Over the past few months, people have commented on many aspects of my poetry. And a lot of what people say affects me and my writing. Some people have mentioned my pervasive use of 'letting go' in my poems, and have told me I've taken it too far. Perhaps I have, but I see a particular beauty in letting go of something. I have problems dealing with loss and abandonment. Toward myself and others. A specific example is in the movie Inside Out , where Bing Bong fades away. I'm sorry if I

Easter 2016

Hi guys, I figured the time was right to dive straight into my next post. To coincide with the 1916 centenary celebrations in Ireland, I thought it would be interesting to post something political... Maybe it's time to demonstrate my views, only a little. I'm not strong willed when it comes to politics, but I do have one strong feeling about it all... And that's that Ireland is in a different time to what it once was, back in Easter 1916. I know many people still yearn for a united Ireland.. But I don't understand what more they could possibly want. In my opinion, we reap many benefits from being in the state that we currently are. For those unaware of Irish history, I'll give you a brief explanation. There are six counties in Northern Ireland, that Michael Collins signed off to the United Kingdom back in 1921. There was an agreement drawn up to allow the Irish to have their own home rule, instead of being governed from London. In this agreement, Northern Ir

The Consequences of Forgetting

Hi guys! I've finally gotten around to posting my February poem.. For this month, I've gone for something old. I mentioned it in my last 'Joanne Here!' post, thinking I had already posted it. Nevertheless, here it is. The Consequences of Forgetting is based upon the same person In Case You Forget , Before I Let You Go and Love Cloud are. The person that, I've grown to realise, never truly had any ties with me. We were always two separate people, with an inevitable ending. There was nothing more than that... That was it. And once I came to that realisation, I felt like a fool. A fool for thinking otherwise. A fool for believing in him... A fool for feeling anything at all. Mainly though.. I felt like a fool for writing poems about him. Words I can't take back.. It's kind of like public humiliation that I've caused to myself. He didn't intentionally hurt me, he was just living a life that was parallel to mine. Our paths rarely crossed then,

Fictional Dependency - Part II: The Destructive Bystander

Happy 2016 guys! I hope ye have all settled in nicely into the new year. And I really hope this year will be the year all your hopes and dreams come true! I've been asked a lot of questions regarding Neurological Warfare since it was posted, and all I've really told people is that it's fictitious. It is, I'm not lying.. But it is a little personal. I initially wrote Neurological Warfare because I thought it would be appropriate to finally construct my thoughts into a poem.. So that people would read it and understand. But while I did that, I put a fictional turn on the story that may have taken away from my point. The moral of Neurological Warfare , in summary, was that there are outsiders, outside relationships, wars, homes, fights, friend circles.. Everywhere.. And very often, more can be seen from the outside. In this instance, the girl can see there is no real point to the war that is happening, and from the outside, she can see how simple it would be to